Just because

Dear Stone,
My sweet little blue eyed man with rosy red cheeks and a button nose.
Those big rosy cheeks of yours kill me and there's not much I love more then snuggling up to them and holding you close.
Skin to skin you and me.
Cheek to cheek.
I don't rock you back and forth like I did with your brother.
You and me, we sway.
The other day you wanted nothing but me. You just wanted to be held, and so I held you for a good hour and together we swayed around your room and I sang to you.
You've never been a cuddlier, even as a baby, so I knew you must of needed mama time.
I held you close and you clung to me, and I sang to you.
Twinkle twinkle and Amazing grace.
You laid your head on my shoulder and gently, slowly, you nodded off to sleep.
…..And my heart was so full for the rest of the day.
I love holding you and rocking you and am so proud I get to be your mom.
Don't you ever forget that my sweet boy.
You are mine and I am yours. Forever and ever.

Hugs and kisses.

Mama

A philly cheesesteak

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Dear little man,
We're 37 weeks today, you and me.
I had my first craving a few days ago.
The I-can't-live-without-it-even-though-I-really-could-there's-no-way-in-heck-I-want-to kind.
I started thinking of a Philly cheesesteak mid afternoon and by 8 at night I had to have one.
It wasn't live or die, but it felt pretty close.
I got a 10 incher, totally unashamed at the larger then it should be size, and ate the entire blissful thing.
It was pretty close to heaven and it took everything in me not to drive back down to San Jose the next day and get another one for lunch.

Last night you were acting kinda funny.
I'm pretty sure you were scooting a bit lower because for about 3 hours in the middle of the night we sat up you and I as you squirmed.
I ate poptarts and you slowly inched your way down. Your kicks went from being up around my ribs to about belly button high.
I'm super hoping that means you'll be making your appearance sooner then later.
I feel like I'm running against the clock trying to get everything done, and at the same time I can't wait to meet you.

Finn has been practicing with your soon to be buddy Broderick and doing such a good job.
He's going to be such a good big brother.
We got cribs and hung more photos and rearranged you and your brothers room in the last week.
I can't wait to show you it.
I love you sweet boy.
Hugs and kisses.

Mama

9 months!

Oh baby boy,
We're at 9 months, or 36 weeks.
Today we got you and your brother cribs and mattresses.
My hospital bag is by the bed, and your carseat is installed.
We're practically all ready to meet you.
Keep growing healthy and strong.
I can't wait to meet you and kiss your little cheeks.
4 weeks and counting.
I love you bunches.

Mama

33 weeks and counting

Dear baby,
Today you're the size of a pineapple and almost 5 lbs. We have 6 weeks and 3 days left until your due date, although truth be told I don't think you'll be waiting that long to make your appearance. They say you take after your mom with your first, and Mimi had me almost a month early. Mama is always late to everything, so if you are early, I'm letting you know ahead of time, you got that from your daddy.

It's getting harder to sleep at night since you like to dance from midnight-two am most nights. But that's okay. We have private little dance parties all to ourselves while your papa and Finley are busy sleeping.
Who needs sleep? Mama's got some killer new under eye cream in preparation for the sleepless nights we're going to share oh so soon.

I love you bunches and can't wait to kiss your sweet cheeks.

Hugs and love.

Mama.

8 months

Oh baby baby.
 You're getting so big and mama can't believe how fast time is going by!
 In two months I will be holding you.
 Crazy.
 I love you bunches little man.
 xo

30 weeks

Dear Baby,
I can't believe how fast this time is going by with you.
Before we even know it you'll be here and we'll go from being a family of three to a family of four.
I got Finley a baby doll this week so he can practice holding and feeding it like he'll soon be helping me do with you.
He can't wait to hold you.
"Hold baby brudder." he said after meeting Broderick
"Yes Finn," I told him "You can hold your baby brother."
And he beamed.
We think we have your name figured out,
and I'm more then a little excited about it.
Daddy talks to you at night and you kick and squirm like you know it's him.
We all are looking so forward to meeting little you.
Stay cozy and warm a bit while longer.
Love and belly pats sweet little man.

Mama

 

29 weeks

Dear baby boy,
You're the size of a cabbage and almost 3 lbs.
We can see you physically moving and kicking and hiccuping.
11 at night is your most favorite time to show off your new tricks.
Finn is enamored with you as always,
and we talk about your arrival daily.
Daddy and I have three names we're choosing between but we're almost sure we know what you will be called.
I love you always.

Mama